Happy New Year (better late than never)

2010 is now here! Maddy and I celebrated by enjoying the countdown after a night of playing games and making mini pizzas for a late night snack. Poor Presley would have never made it to midnight, so we didn't even try. Instead, it was "Mommy and Maddy" time. We called Daddy at work right before the countdown so he could celebrate with us, which made the night extra special. Even though I hate that Jeff had to work, I really had a great night. Madysen is at such a fun age- asking funny questions, wanting to be a part of everything! She was my little party buddy tonight complete with party hats and all. It seems so mind blowing that it has been 10 years since the millennium, as I was a senior in high school. I believe I was probably spending the New Year at Shadow Lakes with a bunch of people, who at the time seemed like best friends, but are now complete strangers. Had you asked me that night where I'd be in 10 years, I don't know if I would have said a SAHM of two daughters! I probably would have said something like "traveling the world." I however, can look back and say that i have no regrets. I have enjoyed being young and carefree and now wouldn't change my life for anything. I prayed for this happiness for so long, I love every minute of it. I always was afraid to be a mom, afraid I wouldn't be good at it, but now it consumes me. It defines me. I am a mother. My girls are my life and I LOVE it. Of course, I too, am a wife and have a really amazing husband. I know a lot of people say they have a great husband, but I really mean it. Of course sometimes I want to beat him (ha!), but he surprises me everyday with how much he loves me and our kids. He loves me, even with all my imperfections. It has been hard for me to let my guard down and know that he isn't just going to leave. We are forever and our life together is forever. Coming from the life I have had, this was very hard for me. I have always expected the worst, and now I just know that no matter what happens our family can get through it together. What an awesome feeling to have!
Time seems to be flying by as 2010 begins, my one goal this year is to enjoy each day more. Many days now with two little ones, I drown myself all day with cleaning, dishes, laundry, internet...etc. I always think.. "Oh, tomorrow we'll do this.." I really truly want to focus on setting aside time each day to spend separately with each daughter. Lately, we have been battling a little jealousy from Madysen, so I really think this might help the situation. I want to be more creative as a mom, go to the library, finger paint, make projects...open up our minds to many new things. Being a mom is the hardest job in the world, and we should be proud of ourselves!!! For my children, I just want to teach them to be comfortable with themselves, teach them to be loving and compassionate, and to live life everyday. I want them to know they always have our (Jeff and I) love and support to do anything they want to do. That is something I never felt in my heart and I hope my girls carry that with them all throughout their lives. HAPPY 2010...let it be a year full of blessings and good health.